yeah, im not dead.
shit happens; i know i dont have it bad but im sick of the shit going on in my life right now. i just dont know what to do.
ive loved this guy for quite some time now, and he was my first kiss. and just tonight he decided that "he's not r e a d y for a relationship" when he asked me out a few days ago. Then he desides to send me a bunch of restricted calls telling me how big of a slut i am and how my life is pointless, and then he desides to play dumb when i tell him to knock it off. im just breaking down right now and i dont know where else to turn to.
i know i havent been the best friend ever, and ive been really iffy with this site and staying on and everything. i cant promise anything, but i miss you guys. i remember way back when i talked to you guys all the time. i was so happy because my life was screwed up back then too, but i dont know. i was busy. my tablet broke. i lost my ability to draw. i was messed up with this thing called love. but now i think its time for me to come back, i need to draw. i just relised how much it helped me with my feelings, just to let them out. without this site and drawing and everything, ive just been bottling up emotions and stuff and its not good.
like i said before, my tablet broke, so its gonna be hand-drawings from now on. i dont even care; im not here for popularity. i dont care if my art sucks, im here to express myself and make amazing friends.
i love you guys, dont forget that. ill be on more hopefully <3 you guys need to fill me in on stuff thats gone on...